Cardboard Confessional

~ Lyrics ~

(Find you in the dark)

I’m self destructive you know it 

They call me D for Demonic 

I’m here to silence the sirens

Then turn the silence to violence 

I turned my treasure to garbage 

I’m here to tear out the sonnets 

I dig for hope but cant find it 

Don’t got it want it honest 

I tear out pillars then I cry when it crashes down 

I turn the volume up then plug my ears don’t hear a sound 

I take the wings right off the plane and now we’re going down 

Ain’t got no parachute wanna save me better be right now 

Welcome to my down fall, my cardboard confessional 

I could never let it go, just know I regret it all 

Even if I hit the wall, even if the motor stalls 

Don’t feel bad for me we both know it’s all my fault 

I still look for light on the inside

But even then I lean on my pride

Try to be a better me that’s suiside

I think I’m dyin’ alive

I’m so far gone

It’s still so dark

I don’t know if I’m even in the ballpark

I can’t stay true

I think I out-grew

My state of mind where I can break through

I’m in the land of the damned and I can’t stand

Understand why I can’t take your hand

You’ll never know unless you stand and face it first-hand

I know it’s wrong but I’d rather stay in dreamland

(Find you in the dark) 

I get cold I’ll burn the bridges rip the door right off the hinges 

No receipt and no forgiveness I explain but you don’t get it 

I feel weak I talk to Jesus please just leave us 

Please believe this I’m no genius 

I feel puzzled always left to pick up pieces 

I will sacrifice to save even if only saving face 

Even in an early grave, I hold sin and you hold grace 

I know now we’re not the same stupid thinking you would stay 

Biggest lie I told myself is you were wrong and I could change

But you’ll forever be locked to me when they copy me 

Promise you’ll remember me, T minus 17 

Years just to build a beast leave me with the wild-a-beast

You might be gone but you could never leave 

I still look for light on the inside

But even then I lean on my pride

Try to be a better me that’s suiside

I think I’m dyin’ alive

I’m so far gone

It’s still so dark

I don’t know if I’m even in the ballpark

I can’t stay true

I think I out-grew

My state of mind where I can break through

I’m in the land of the damned and I can’t stand

Understand why I can’t take your hand

You’ll never know unless you stand and face it first-hand

I know it’s wrong but I’d rather stay in dreamland

I’m awful I know I could never let it go

I say I’m in control but it’s killing me slow

Up and down we go like a pogo oh no 

I’m not saying I’m gonna change I’m just saying I know 

Fear me hear me leave me weary 

I hold on to mistakes dearly, all my faults examined clearly take the wheel and let ‘em steer me 

Count ‘em keep ‘em then I see ‘em 

Find my demon’s then I feed ‘em 

Then I treat ‘em never beat ‘em all out war I feel defeated 

Self destructive I admit it, oh you think that you’re a critic?

I destroyed myself before you even got a hit in 

I don’t think you really get  you aren’t bad enough to get in 

You might hate my life but I doubted my existence

(Just catch me if I fall)

I still look for light on the inside

But even then I lean on my pride

Try to be a better me that’s suiside

I think I’m dyin’ alive

I’m so far gone

It’s still so dark

I don’t know if I’m even in the ballpark

I can’t stay true

I think I out-grew

My state of mind where I can break through

I’m in the land of the damned and I can’t stand

Understand why I can’t take your hand

You’ll never know unless you stand and face it first-hand

I know it’s wrong but I’d rather stay in dreamland

(Find you in the dark)