A Healthy Dose (Paralyzed)

~ Lyrics ~

And I can’t move ain’t no use in shaking lose 

It’s like anxiety is choking me it’s got a noose 

I need the truth but I been hiding in the booth 

And I'm acting like it gets better better it never do 

I feel paralyzed kinda like I’m hypnotized 

Even in a suit and tie I feel like the stupid guy 

I feel stupid when I cry I look dumb when I ask why 

I don’t know how to escape but I’ll act like I’m fine 

Healthy dose of self hate chemicals to medicate

I feel like I can’t change welcome to my darkest days 

Welcome to the parts of me I keep inside a cage 

I been battling anxiety but all you see is rage 

Every gasp that feels like I can’t breathe

Might be my last if I can’t get up and get free

But here I stand acting like I’m happy 

But I want you to know that that was never me 

That’s a healthy dose

Of my medication 

Yeah it’s pure frustration

Let me leave

Just a healthy dose

Of my medication

Yeah I’m still self hatin’

Let me be

Don’t hold your breath for me ‘cause then we’ll both be suffocating 

And don’t you pray for me ‘cause I don’t think I’m ever changing 

There ain’t much left of me, I feel like I’m slowly fading 

But if I got to just to save you I will make you hate me

But what’s it matter now everything is crashing down 

I would scream out avalanche if I thought I could make a sound

I would scream out so loud but you would think I’m so proud 

You’d just call me arrogant but I’m about to drown 

So heed the warning before your mourning in the morning 

I swear they called for rain but when I go out it’s been pouring 

But I’ll catch lightning in a bottle if it keeps on storming 

I’m the only person that could end my story

That’s a healthy dose

Of my medication 

Yeah it’s pure frustration

Let me leave

That’s a healthy dose

Of my medication 

Yeah it’s pure frustration

Let me leave

Just a healthy dose

Of my medication

Yeah I’m still self hating

Let me be

Let me be